22:19 - [CBC]Thundermatt: But chill
22:19 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I can't
22:19 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Look
22:19 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I've something with my head
22:19 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I mean
22:19 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I don't know how to say it
22:19 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: eh
22:19 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: My head, is a mess
22:19 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: all day long
22:19 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I can't sit and not-more
22:19 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: move*
22:19 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I'm always moving
22:19 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: heads
22:19 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: head*
22:19 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: feet
22:19 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: hands
22:19 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: everything
22:20 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: My head is just one mess, and I think in a way you don't know about
22:20 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Ever have seen the program Chuck on TV?
22:20 - [CBC]Thundermatt: Nope,
22:20 - [CBC]Thundermatt: Also
22:20 - [CBC]Thundermatt: You seen really nerveious/stressted out.
22:20 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: That's how my head works, like in the program Chuck. I see something, then I see everything I know about that thing or person
22:20 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Yes I am
22:20 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: That's my life
22:20 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: my head
22:21 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: That's why I barely make homework
22:21 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: That's why I'm below my level at school
22:21 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I used to be in the highest form of education
22:21 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: now I'm in the average part
22:21 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: But I'm smart as fuck
22:21 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: just can't use it
22:21 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: My IQ is 122
22:21 - [CBC]Thundermatt: You know what>
22:21 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I'm gifted
22:21 - [CBC]Thundermatt: You obvisly need a break from this
22:21 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: You know what that means?
22:22 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: No, it's my whole life, not the community.
22:22 - [CBC]Thundermatt: Ah/
22:22 - [CBC]Thundermatt: Gifted? Like A really good student, or what?
22:22 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Yes
22:22 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I used to be in the hardest form of education here in The Netherlands
22:23 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: which means
22:23 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I could go straight to university if I graduated from that
22:23 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Right now
22:23 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I'm 2 forms below that
22:23 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: We have VMBO (dumbest people), HAVO (average people), VWO (smart people)
22:23 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: VWO has 2 parts, Gymnasium and Atheneum
22:23 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I used to be in Gymnasium, the highest
22:23 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Then sunk to Atheneum
22:23 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Now I'm at HAVO
22:23 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: And VMBO has like 6 sub-forms in it
22:24 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: So
22:24 - [CBC]Thundermatt: Wow
22:24 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I'm in the average section now
22:24 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I'm smart as fuck
22:24 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: But can't use it beacuse of learning disabilities
22:24 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I'm best in class
22:24 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I barely make homework
22:24 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I don't study for tests
22:24 - [CBC]Thundermatt: Well
22:24 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: The only fucking reason I make homework is
22:24 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: To be allowed to come in class
22:25 - [CBC]Thundermatt: Your problem is......That you need to SHOW you are a good student
22:25 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Because all I do is go to class, listne to what they say and go away
22:25 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: No
22:25 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I got diagnosed
22:25 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I got diagnosed by several doctors
22:25 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I got tested for everything
22:25 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: ADHD
22:25 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: ADD
22:25 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: PDD-NOS
22:25 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Autism
22:25 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: All that shit
22:25 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Nothing
22:25 - [CBC]Thundermatt: You know what.
22:25 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Just a learning disability that has to do with my IQ
22:25 - [CBC]Thundermatt: Thoese doctors are bullshiting you.
22:26 - [CBC]Thundermatt: I seen some Special students
22:26 - [CBC]Thundermatt: My brother is annoying as fuckballs
22:26 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Dude...
22:26 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Thunder
22:26 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: No offence
22:26 - [CBC]Thundermatt: some of my friends are older but act younger.
22:26 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I don't have a problem with what I have
22:26 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I'm fine with it
22:26 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I'm just telling you
22:26 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: That doctors aren't bullshitting
22:26 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: because I went to them because I wanted an explanation for what's wrong with me
22:27 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: My structure of thinking and shit
22:27 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Is way different
22:27 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: no one gets me
22:27 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I'm too "smart"
22:27 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Don't think that those doctors are bullshitting
22:27 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Because I had tests for about 2 days a week
22:27 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: for 2 weeks
22:28 - [CBC]Thundermatt: You might have been down on your luck because of hat the doctors said
22:28 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Nope.
22:28 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I used to study 6 hours a day
22:28 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: now nothing
22:28 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I used t o get 4's on a scale on 1/10
22:28 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: now I get 8/10 and I don't study at all
22:29 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I got diagnosed with something called a Verbal-Performal gap
22:29 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Your IQ has 2 parts
22:29 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: The part that is being used while talking
22:29 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: and the part that is being used while writing / typing
22:29 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: It's more complicated than that
22:29 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: but this the 8-year-old-kid story
22:29 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: If I talk
22:30 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: My IQ is 20 points higher than when I write
22:30 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: That's the bad thing
22:30 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Because
22:30 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Everyone has a difference between the verbal and performal
22:30 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: but
22:30 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: "normal" is a max of 12 difference
22:30 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I have 20
22:30 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: which is about 80% more than "allowed"
22:30 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: That causes that I can't write down what I have in my head
22:30 - [CBC]Thundermatt: Everyone has thier own defintion of "Normal"
22:31 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: At Gymnasium, the hardest form, they ask you to have insight and shit, and tell them a shit ton of stuff.
22:31 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: If I got asked this all verbally, so, asking me using mouth
22:31 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I could answer it all fine
22:31 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: But writing down is my problem.
22:31 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: That's where it went wrong.
22:31 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: I spent 2 years on something I couldn't finish
22:31 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: 6 hours a day doing homework
22:32 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Tons of money spent on study-support because my parents thought I didn't want to study and I was just lazy
22:32 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Untill my dad one day told me I should see some specialist about it
22:32 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: so we did
22:32 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: First one said I had nothing
22:32 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Then we went to another one
22:32 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: better one
22:32 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: In bigger hospital
22:32 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: And
22:32 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Turned out I had that gap in IQ
22:32 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Relief, parents believed me
22:32 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: school put me down 2 forms
22:32 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: NOw: each hour if party time
22:32 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: no homework
22:32 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: no studying
22:33 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: high grades
22:33 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: and my graduation papers
22:33 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: Done.
22:33 - [CBC] Ruben Rapist: That's my life