I only write you this because I felt like I didn't fully explain myself so I just wanted to tie up any questions you have. First of all I don't share any feelings of anger or hate against you in any way. I honestly do wish you were happy no matter where you are. I'm sure you don't need me and recently proved that. I had to do this because you made me anxious. I felt horrible all the time because I cared more about you than I did. It was all fun but then you became slightly cold. I know you said it was because of all the real life stuff but none of that was my fault. I didn't do anything and I never did anything. You still took it out on me regardless. I still cared about you the same and you just changed overall. I love you Cat but you already have a wonderful life regardless of what you say. I'm not saying my life is worse but shit still I wish I had yours. The fact that I used to be someone really important and then all of a sudden you act cold and then I wasn't. I put my all dude and take a look at what you did. I only feel this way because I was kinda done dirty. We were fucking happy and then this. I never did anything but I got the "you're part of the problem" you anyway. That's why I felt bad. But whatever. I'm ready to move on but I owed you a more clear explanation. You kinda already got all the people you really need in your life anyway. Thanks for making me happy for that one month. It felt like the shortest 5 months ever but that one month with constant skype calls and all nighters and I felt like I was actually "special". I always lowered my hopes and myself so I wouldn't be feeling this way but you always insisted I wasn't even though you didn't act like it. I could've waited for you but I would feel horrible and couldn't even get school work done. We both got things to do. Have a nice life Cat. I'll always love you and I hope you get all the good you deserved. We're two people with a lot on our place. I know you didn't ask for this and but I didn't either and in fact tried to avoid it but it felt great and I decided to continue the friendship and I got close. Too close I guess. I never really liked anyone. I never had this girl who was smart and funny and wasn't a scrublord in TF2. I'm going after sending this. I just don't want to be around as it defeats the whole purpose of me doing this. Just don't deny I never cared but oh quite the opposite. I'm going to go on my own now. Inb4 "I really don't need this right now" I didn't need all that crap either. I got tired of waiting because I'd be digging myself in a bigger hole which would've made this harder to get out of. This was my only chance to say everything before you're gone anyway. I'm an idiot for this but I don't regret it. You're truly one of a kind and I guess I really turned out to be just some guy. I wasn't back then but now I am. All this from some guy. Goodbye Breakfast. If I haven't said before I do hope you have a good life with your loved one and friends.