Love Letter #2. 
This is all the things that are really hard for me to just.. say. And its a lot easier for me to put them like this.

Dear Cherry,
	I love you more than anything Cherry. it's really hard for me to see you like this and I'm trying so hard to help. But I don't know what to do, what to say. I feel like you're slowly slipping away and I won't be able to stop you. After that, idk what i'll do. I don't want to imagine my life without a friend like you Cherry. But when I do, I feel comepletely alone. Sad to say that I don't really have anyone else. Maybe I will find new friends and ect, but none like you.
	
	I just don't know what to do. I try so hard to keep you in a positive mood and keep your mind off whatever it is. I love you Cherry and I care for you a lot. With you gone who's going to carry me in League? Who am I going to play with in Diablo? Who am I going to look forward to talking to everyday? How am I going to fight with Peter over you when you're not there anymore? Who am I going to talk to everyday and sing with? I've never sang infront of someone like that, but with you, its like it doesn't even matter. 
	
	We might not have known eachother for long and have never met, but you really are the greatest friend I have. Said it before, I'll say it again and again. You are loved. You are cherished. You are adored. By more people than you think, not just me. And none of us want to see you leave. Not even you, I know this because you've tried to do it. But you can't, can you? Because you don't want to die. You want to believe that you can go on. Well, you can! Whatever happened, its the past now. You are more than the choices that you've made, you are more than the sum of your past mistakes, you are more than the problems you create. You are strong and you can and will move on from this. You have an entire life ahead of you and maybe you just don't see it. You'll figure out one day what you want to do with your life. Drawing and being an artist is possible, with your drawing skills you could be a painter, a graphic designer, maybe there are more choices than you think. I'm begging you not to give up on life. You're important to your family, your friends. You're important to me.
	
	In the end, it is your choice. And no one can stop you. All I can do is hope to god that you hear me when I say that its not worth it. If you look into a mirror and don't see anything beautiful then get a better mirror. Look a little closer. Stare a little longer. Because theres something inside you that made you keep trying despite when you told yourself to quit. You can make it in this life, who's to say that there is a next life? Who's to say theres not a hell that you would be forced to by taking your own life? Reality, is certain. Death is unknown. Stick to reality and make something of yourself. Everyone has something to contribute to this world, including you.
	I will always be there for whenever I can. I don't give a fuck what the hell I'm doing. You. Call. Me. Before you make that final choice. I'm begging you to at least do that. The LAST thing you're doing is bothering me. I can't be bothered when I'm helping out a friend. You're more important than whatever the hell I'm doing. Especially if it means saving your life. I beg you, call me. If you ever need anything, I'll be there to do anything that I can. I love you Cherry. 

I loved you once, love you still. Always have, always will.

Michael

P.S. Even if Matthew "gets over" you. He will ALWAYS have the regret and the curiosity of what would've happened, if he had known what was going on. Would he have been able to stop it? I had a little brother once. I never knew him, yet I still wonder about it all the time. They say that killing yourself is the most selfish thing you can do. All you're doing is making the ones that love you suffer.