Never tell your password to anyone. Monday, October 07, 2013 7:50 PM - swim: we need to do something 7:50 PM - Alody rip: I'm trying to forget chuu 7:50 PM - Alody rip: like what 7:50 PM - swim: I dont know. 7:51 PM - swim: Like, he wont fucking answer. 7:51 PM - swim: It's like he only answers to fucking cunts in his circle 7:51 PM - swim: I tried messaging him but he would just ignore me like he used to 7:51 PM - swim: It makes no sense. 7:51 PM - Alody rip: we played alot for about a week or two 7:51 PM - swim: Really 7:51 PM - swim: / 7:51 PM - swim: ? 7:51 PM - Alody rip: and one day 7:51 PM - Alody rip: he just stops 7:51 PM - Alody rip: talking t 7:52 PM - swim: Yeah same fucking shit 7:52 PM - swim: For how long? 7:52 PM - Alody rip: he started ignoring me last sunday 7:52 PM - swim: Geez. 7:52 PM - swim: He ignored me for 3 fucking weeks. 7:52 PM - swim: And I'm fucking tired of that. 7:52 PM - Alody rip: he's really a bad person 7:53 PM - Alody rip: his situation is sad 7:53 PM - swim: Yeah. 7:53 PM - Alody rip: and it turned him in a bad person 7:53 PM - Alody rip: he just doesn't get how others feel 7:53 PM - swim: He has a high fucking ego that no one fucking cares about 7:53 PM - swim: I know. 7:53 PM - swim: If only people in the world actually cared 7:54 PM - Alody rip: yeah 7:54 PM - Alody rip: we cant really affect people like him 7:54 PM - Alody rip: thats the worst thing 7:54 PM - swim: yeah people like this have no feelings for others 7:55 PM - swim: thats what drives me fucking insane 7:55 PM - swim: its like dealing with a SLUT 7:55 PM - Alody rip: if only he told me/you why he likes to ignore 7:56 PM - swim: yeah 7:56 PM - swim: i tried messaging him 7:56 PM - Alody rip: I actually had to ask Erin for help 7:56 PM - swim: im getting nothing 7:56 PM - swim: its pissing me off 7:56 PM - Alody rip: from what Erin and Patriot told me 7:56 PM - Alody rip: he ''needs some space'' 7:56 PM - Alody rip: but that's bullshit 7:57 PM - swim: I think the same. 7:57 PM - Alody rip: I'm just trying to forget the fact that I wasted alot of my time with him 7:58 PM - swim: You dont know how I feel. 7:58 PM - Alody rip: and got nothing in return but getting ignored 7:58 PM - swim: I wasted 6 months of my life. 7:58 PM - swim: I want them back. 7:58 PM - swim: Really fucking bad. 7:58 PM - Alody rip: fuck 7:59 PM - Alody rip: and what I did after I removed him 7:59 PM - Alody rip: I wont apologize to him for that 7:59 PM - Alody rip: but I really had no excuse 7:59 PM - Alody rip: even at how mad I was 7:59 PM - swim: Yeah. 7:59 PM - swim: Me either. 8:00 PM - Alody rip: you should try to move on really 8:00 PM - Alody rip: even if its painful 8:00 PM - swim: I did. 8:00 PM - swim: He won't fucking say anything 8:00 PM - swim: so I have nothing else to do 8:01 PM - Alody rip: yea.. 8:02 PM - swim: It's people like this that piss me off the most 8:02 PM - swim: they are so self-concious but not concious about the people around them 8:02 PM - Alody rip: he's really just a narcissist hypocrite 8:03 PM - swim: I can say the same. 8:03 PM - Alody rip: even when we were friends I couldn't help but feel hatred towards him 8:03 PM - swim: I know that feel. 8:05 PM - swim: You should just move on you know. 8:05 PM - swim: I'm going to in a bit. 8:05 PM - swim: Its depressing and it fucking hurts 8:05 PM - swim: like i cant sleep 8:06 PM - swim: ive been hurting myself a bit recently, and well, i took in drinking loads of caffeine 8:06 PM - swim: im depressed as fuck, but i try not to show it 8:06 PM - Alody rip: I understand 8:06 PM - swim: i once tried like, cutting myself 8:06 PM - swim: and tried pissing in my wounds so it would burn 8:06 PM - swim: idk, its fucking stupid 8:06 PM - swim: but it helps me forget 8:06 PM - swim: i want to move on 8:06 PM - swim: but 6 months is a lot 8:06 PM - Alody rip: take it slow man 8:07 PM - Alody rip: but I know how depression feels 8:07 PM - swim: Yeah. 8:07 PM - Alody rip: I almost killed myself back in highschool 8:07 PM - Alody rip: its something that I dont tell everyone 8:07 PM - Alody rip: I didnt even tell him 8:08 PM - swim: Yeah. 8:08 PM - swim: Depression sucks man, but its a part of life 8:08 PM - swim: no matter how bad it is 8:08 PM - Alody rip: yeah 8:09 PM - Alody rip: life is unfair and we have to get used to it 8:09 PM - swim: Yeah. 8:09 PM - swim: It also makes me want to die 8:09 PM - Alody rip: and maybe he's sad too about all of it 8:10 PM - swim: Like after what happened, I wanted to jump infront of a train. Or livestream my own suicide. 8:10 PM - swim: I would be a hero, but then again, there is no justice in killing yourself. 8:10 PM - Alody rip: you'll find someone else 8:10 PM - Alody rip: I know it's hard to move on 8:10 PM - Alody rip: but please 8:10 PM - Alody rip: dont kill yourself because of him 8:10 PM - swim: I tried. 8:11 PM - swim: I wanted to cut along my arms and pour salt in, so it would burn more. 8:11 PM - swim: Burn like the pain in my heart. 8:11 PM - swim: Its fucking stupid how depression can get you to feel like this 8:11 PM - Alody rip: I know that feel 8:11 PM - Alody rip: and hey 8:11 PM - Alody rip: sorry about the last.fm shit 8:11 PM - swim: its alright 8:11 PM - swim: im kind of done with that shit too 8:11 PM - swim: I actually also dreamed once of dying in my own fucking shit. 8:12 PM - swim: I want to look shit, so everyone would remember the depressed fuck i am 8:12 PM - Alody rip: can you talk to anyone about how you feel? 8:13 PM - swim: Yeah, I've kinda talked to my counselor at school about this, 8:13 PM - swim: And well, It was a depressing matter. 8:13 PM - swim: I don't like discussing about shit like pouring salt in wounds, and suicide, 8:13 PM - swim: But I cant let it stay in forever. 8:13 PM - Alody rip: yeah 8:14 PM - swim: Like, I actually wanted to broadcast my suicide, and write a suicide letter all directing it towards Chuu. I want that fucker incriminated for his actions and my suffering. 8:14 PM - swim: I acidentally tried cutting on my dick, well, not in a way that It would "fall off", but pain that would help me forget. 8:14 PM - swim: I wish all things would be so easy to forget, like suicide. 8:15 PM - swim: But dying because someone got you mad is stupid, or getting mad in general is pretty stupid. 8:15 PM - Alody rip: try talking to your friends 8:15 PM - Alody rip: maybe they can help you 8:15 PM - swim: I don't have many to talk to. 8:16 PM - Alody rip: my best friend knows I tried killing myself 8:16 PM - Alody rip: I'm lucky to have someone like that to talk to 8:17 PM - swim: Yeah, well I don't have anyone. 8:20 PM - Alody rip: you can always try getting with someone else on steam 8:20 PM - swim: again i dont have many 8:24 PM - swim: I seriously cant get him to answer me. 8:24 PM - swim: I feel like shit. 8:25 PM - Alody rip: the only thing he does is remove comments 8:25 PM - swim: He removed several of my recent comments. 8:25 PM - Alody rip: oh and patriot wants to talk to you 8:25 PM - Alody rip: aswell 8:26 PM - swim: alright 8:26 PM - swim: I had him blocked for some reason 8:26 PM - swim: but we can talk 8:31 PM - swim: he isnt adding me 8:31 PM - swim: i seriously need someone to talk to 8:32 PM - Alody rip: I'm gonna talk to him one sec 8:32 PM - Alody rip: there 8:32 PM - swim: Alright 8:38 PM - Alody rip is now Online.