Remember that girl I been talkin to you bout, like 2 months ago, the one I was talkin to? Well we've been in a relationship for bout a month and like 15 days or so now, and I been thinkin. I walked her home (relatively close to my house) lots of times and it was bout 2 weeks into the relationship and I asked her like, when was I going to meet her father? (I grew up in my family where my parents taught me to meet peoples parents as a respect thing, and to make myself feel comfortable, which i have no problem at all meeting her parents.) And she said "Uh, you're not going to meet my dad." she replied quickly and she thought that i was refering to that meet him that day, and that took me by suprise because what if i was referin to that day? I spoke to her about it later and she said one day.

Well A week passes from then and I say hey I wonna take you to the movies, and she said something that sounded like an excuse ("Well If I go to the movies my dad/mom would want to meet the people I'm going with blah blah and this and that.) and I took that as like, is she ashamed of me to meet her parents? Embaressed? Kinda is a really big ego-ruiner, and I was like whatever it's all good. I asked her a week later if she'd wanted to go to the movies again, but this time a few of my friends were going (These are good people, smart honors class out of trouble people.) and I figured it'd be a little bit more comfortable for her (?) if I we went with a bigger crowd. And she didn't give an excuse but a big "Meh, I don't wonna go to the movies." and I kinda asked her again to double check but in a different approach and she was like yeah nah im good. So I was like uh, ok it's all good.

(We talk every day, we hang out durin school for like an hour either she'd want to be alone with me or we'd be with her friends (Because she doesn't like most of the people I hangout with, the lesser people i guess i could say), walk her home some days, hold hands i know all her friends you know, the whole gist of things, sit on my lap, lays on me while with her friends or alone just basic shit like that ya know, like she's comfortable with me.)

I asked her today though, hey, I want to take you to the mall and take you shopping at the mall and she was all like I don't want to make you go broke, this and that but she kind of did hit me with a solid point, her parents are already going to be taking her shopping and that she'd feel guilty about spending my money (!?) plus after they were going to take her shopping she'd have all the things she wanted already. She's a middle class person, parents got the nice new bmw's, mercedez etc. And I live in a run down ass house and my parents don't drive nice cars (Doesn't matter honestly I know, JUST saying) but I still feel comfortable with her if she'd want to see my place or meet my parents, but It's kind of a confidence fucker for me though because I feel like I'm a lesser person, and that I'm not worthy of being her boyfriend and I would think that's probably why she won't let me meet her parents, or something like that.