I tried to live.
I am just not worth it.
I want to leave.
It feels like forever.

I feel hurt.
I expected an easy answer.
I want to leave.
I wish I could do it.

Am I for real?
So many questions.
I tried to leave.
And I couldn’t make it.

I cannot believe I tried to leave.
What you said when I tried to leave.
It still sticks with me today.
I just could not do it.

I feel hated.
I feel sad.
I cannot go on.
I need to leave.

Even in my dreams
I am happy when I am dead
I will not be missed
I would rather just leave

I am closer to the edge
I am about to fall down
I am not sorry for my doings
But I can’t do this to you

You are the reason I smile.
You are the reason I am still around.
I do not have the courage
To do what I have not

Why do I exist?
Nothing loves me.
I am better without.
I have to leave.

My desire to stop existing
Grows stronger every day
Want to be enveloped by 
The darkness that existed



I do not want to die.
I do not want to live.
I do not want to talk.
I do not want to be loved.

I’d put a gun against my head
Pull the trigger
Finally leave you alone.
Living day by day, against my will.

I am nothing.
Nothing matters.
If nothing matters
It means I matter.

I feel hopeless
I want to die.
Die I will.
Tonight.