[11/17/2013 1:51:52 AM] Synapse: What you up to?
[11/17/2013 11:23:48 PM] Synapse: Heys.
[11/17/2013 11:23:53 PM] Synapse: Whats up c:
[11/17/2013 11:24:01 PM] Jae Riley: idk
[11/17/2013 11:25:02 PM] Synapse: Been up to anything?
[11/17/2013 11:25:09 PM] Synapse: o:
[11/17/2013 11:25:13 PM] Jae Riley: work i guess
[11/17/2013 11:25:37 PM] Synapse: you seem a bit down
[11/17/2013 11:25:53 PM] Jae Riley: u havent really talked to me in two days
[11/17/2013 11:26:19 PM] Synapse: I went to kansas city today so i couldn't really talk.
[11/17/2013 11:26:50 PM] Jae Riley: the other day u didnt ither
[11/17/2013 11:27:12 PM] Synapse: I'm sorry, you just didn't seem like you wanted to talk
[11/17/2013 11:27:16 PM] Synapse: So i didn't want to bother you.
[11/17/2013 11:27:28 PM] Synapse: Not only that but i've been busy with pressing matters.
[11/17/2013 11:27:34 PM] Jae Riley: i texted u like millions of times
[11/17/2013 11:27:46 PM] Synapse: what
[11/17/2013 11:27:50 PM] Synapse: I haven't even gotten one
[11/17/2013 11:28:01 PM] Jae Riley: ur phone is dum
[11/17/2013 11:29:56 PM] Jae Riley: i thought u were mad at me
[11/17/2013 11:30:34 PM] Synapse: My phone was on the entire time and had good service.
[11/17/2013 11:30:58 PM] Jae Riley: i give up my cell is such a piece of shit
[11/17/2013 11:31:52 PM] Jae Riley: u arent being urself
[11/17/2013 11:32:03 PM] Synapse: I just got back from an 8 hour drive.
[11/17/2013 11:32:18 PM] Jae Riley: the past two days u havent been urself
[11/17/2013 11:33:39 PM] Synapse: I've been dealing with a bunch of shit
[11/17/2013 11:33:51 PM] Synapse: in error in real life outside of sl on the computer etc
[11/17/2013 11:34:04 PM] Jae Riley: but really
[11/17/2013 11:34:37 PM] Jae Riley: if u talked to me im pretty sure i could talk to u to make u feel better thats what im pretty much here for not to just ignore
[11/17/2013 11:34:48 PM] Jae Riley: here to help
[11/17/2013 11:35:40 PM] Synapse: Well you've been feeling all depressed lately so i didn't want to bother you because it would just make me more emotional.
[11/17/2013 11:36:40 PM] Jae Riley: ive been fine these past two days, but even with that talk to me to make me feel better. i dont have anyone i can really talk to in rl so when i talk to someone i kinda cant shut up
[11/17/2013 11:37:44 PM] Synapse: It's been kinda constant though.
[11/17/2013 11:37:56 PM] Synapse: It just gets kinda tireing because i can't really do much to help at all.
[11/17/2013 11:38:05 PM] Synapse: Talking only temp fixes things and makes you feel better.
[11/17/2013 11:38:36 PM] Synapse: ultimately you have to be the one to fix the problems. i can't really do anything but talk
[11/17/2013 11:40:17 PM] Jae Riley: i am and i have been fixing my problems. instead of my mom bitching at me today i did something nice for her and shes layed off me alot. my stepfather went back to work and im just trying to make the best of my work situations. i mean i didnt mean to make u feel that way. i just need to start writing again to keep my mind off this crap
[11/17/2013 11:43:26 PM] Jae Riley: and now u arent talking again :C
[11/17/2013 11:44:28 PM] Synapse: I'm watching a movie with some friends right now.
[11/17/2013 11:44:47 PM] Jae Riley: hmm
[11/17/2013 11:44:55 PM] Synapse: I'm sorry
[11/17/2013 11:45:06 PM] Synapse: I wanted to check up on you and see how you were doing.
[11/17/2013 11:45:15 PM] Synapse: Because i've been occupied lately.
[11/17/2013 11:45:36 PM] Jae Riley: yea i know, ive been extremely lonely
[11/17/2013 11:47:16 PM] Synapse: I'm usually a very busy person.
[11/17/2013 11:47:23 PM] Synapse: So  i'm sorry if i can't really be here all the time.
[11/17/2013 11:53:57 PM] Synapse: :/
[11/17/2013 11:58:10 PM] Jae Riley: that actually hurt me
[11/17/2013 11:58:22 PM] Synapse: What?
[11/17/2013 11:58:46 PM] Synapse: I was just saying that i'm almost busy all the time which kinda sucks
[11/17/2013 11:58:53 PM] Jae Riley: no not that
[11/17/2013 11:59:10 PM] Jae Riley: i mean u were all lovey to me then just got busy and i felt
[11/17/2013 11:59:22 PM] Jae Riley: kinda abandoned
[12:03:49 AM] Synapse: I'm not abandoning you?
[12:04:51 AM] Jae Riley: i mean you couldve told me u do things like that instead of just disappearing
[12:05:55 AM] Synapse: I'm sorry.
[12:06:14 AM] Jae Riley: just next time please warn me about it
[12:06:33 AM] Jae Riley: ur a good person and i really never want to lose u
[12:07:57 AM] Synapse: Also
[12:08:00 AM] Synapse: Can I talk to you about something?
[12:08:06 AM] Jae Riley: hm?
[12:08:28 AM] Synapse: Do you have a problem with ethan?
[12:09:02 AM] Synapse: Because he's pretty much one of my best friends.
[12:09:12 AM] Jae Riley: no i dont why?
[12:09:30 AM] Jae Riley: i thought he had a problem with me
[12:09:35 AM] Synapse: He
[12:09:37 AM] Synapse: doesn't even know you
[12:09:45 AM] Synapse: He didn't even know you were a girl or who you were.
[12:10:20 AM] Jae Riley: i know but i didnt have a problem with him
[12:10:45 AM] Synapse: Why do you think people hate you when they haven't even said a word to you.
[12:12:10 AM] Jae Riley: i never said that
[12:12:38 AM] Synapse: It happens.. a lot
[12:13:55 AM] Jae Riley: i said that with peeps in error cuz of draith i figured if draith called me a bitch that everyone just didnt like me or didnt want to get to know me
[12:14:14 AM] Synapse: That doesn't even make sense......
[12:14:44 AM] Jae Riley: forget it then
[12:14:56 AM] Jae Riley: i dont have any problems with anyone
[12:17:57 AM] Jae Riley: did ethan ask that or did u
[12:18:03 AM] Synapse: I did.
[12:19:49 AM] Jae Riley: im fucking crying
[12:21:21 AM] Synapse: ...
[12:21:41 AM] Jae Riley: no no not from u fucking space with that damn poop thing
[12:26:33 AM] Jae Riley: im sorry i think i just died
[12:59:21 AM] Jae Riley: may i ask a question?
[1:01:32 AM] Synapse: Sure.
[1:01:48 AM] Jae Riley: do u still like me?
[1:03:20 AM] Synapse: I don't like it when you say that everyone hates you and that you quit and all that. I also don't like how you completely shut down when I even mention jake's name.
[1:06:08 AM] Jae Riley: im sorry that it happened once. and im sorry i dont like exes
[1:06:29 AM] Synapse: It happened multiple times.
[1:06:52 AM] Jae Riley: im sorry i was in a rough spot
[1:10:10 AM] Jae Riley: you still like him
[1:10:29 AM] Synapse: Yes
[1:10:31 AM] Synapse: He's my friend
[1:10:53 AM] Synapse: I've known him for 6 years jae.
[1:11:11 AM] Jae Riley: you still love him
[1:11:22 AM] Synapse: What the fuck are you talking about?
[1:11:32 AM] Jae Riley: nvm
[1:11:56 AM] Synapse: Listen, If you're going to be like this then i really don't think we're going to work out.
[1:12:06 AM] Synapse: Jake is a very good friend of mine and i'm not going to just ditch him.
[1:12:10 AM] Jae Riley: FUCK U THEN
[1:12:33 AM] Jae Riley: you never really cared for me
[1:12:48 AM] Synapse: If that's honestly what you want to think then that's fine.
[1:12:59 AM] Synapse: It's impossible to change your mind once it's set.
[1:13:52 AM] Jae Riley: i fucking love u, and when im just shoved to the side for friends im pretty sure thats treating someone just like a friend not a girlfirend
[1:14:43 AM] Synapse: I'm sorry but if I can't hang out with jake every once and a while with out you freaking out. I can't be a part of this.
[1:15:46 AM] Synapse: I tried to be reasonable and level wtih you to possibly get you to trust me a bit more but it's just not working apparently.
[1:16:15 AM] Jae Riley: trust u how. you havent talked to me in two days how am i supposed to get to know u
[1:17:15 AM] Jae Riley: i dont hate jake im afraid of him. im afraid of him stealing u away
[1:17:44 AM] Synapse: I've tried to explain to you several times before
[1:17:53 AM] Synapse: He has someone who he's happy with
[1:18:06 AM] Jae Riley: are u happy tho?
[1:18:09 AM] Synapse: And I would never get between them and what they have going on
[1:18:16 AM] Synapse: Right now?
[1:18:18 AM] Synapse: I don't know.
[1:18:45 AM] Jae Riley: unstandable. and i wouldnt blame u for hating me now
[1:19:47 AM] Jae Riley: ive fucked up again
[1:24:24 AM] Jae Riley: Ben. Get rid of me. Im just another useless person who cant make others happy.
[1:24:58 AM] Synapse: Guilt tripping is not a good way to go with me.
[1:25:55 AM] Jae Riley: Im not gulit tripping my only stating the truth about me