Title:  Everything I learned about women, I learned from anime.

So, I don't quite know how to start, but I rather share this one... it is a lot funnier.... and weird...

When I was nine is when I first started to ejaculate, and I didn't think much of it. I had a strong attraction to certain girls in my classes, but I usually let it go and dismissed it as a sexual response. The reason I already knew about sex was due to walking in on my parents (I finally told my mother about that a few months ago when we were joking... her laughter stopped...which I laughed harder at). I never really received a sex talk. Now with that little bit of a back story.......

So, I was tampering with things online when I was 11 constantly. A social life outside of my online world didn't matter. I had my games which lead to a social life, had anime for my visual entertainment, went bowling with my family, and most of all myself for my own sexual entertainment at the time. I had become quite good at it (I feel like I was better at pleasing myself than sex is to me now... I don't really enjoy masturbation anymore unless I would have my own vibrator and things like that to get the sexual stimulation as high as I used to....). I played a military game Socom: Fire Team Bravo for the PSP and transitioned to the sequel from 10-12. My favorite anime was Inuyasha at the time, and Kagome (the main female character) aroused me more than women in real life (This is when I say weird comes in to factor). I used to have sex talks about women with a guy named Todd over the video game I played. I can't quite remember his occupation, but he was an adult. He told me a lot about his sexual experiences when he was 12 and onward. Then another friend called NestorGRamos (This was his username) told me to turn on comedy central at 4 A.M. during my all nighter sprees. I did, and seen covered up bodies of Girls Gone Wild. Never aroused me as much as anime did at that time. He found that confusing when I said my opinion. With an analysis on myself from looking back on it... I isolated myself from the real world as much as I could during my pubescent years. The reason I explain all of this is because it all feels clustered together now, but this is when it gets more interesting with my obsession with anime... One day when I was 12 I decided I wanted pictures infront of me when I started to stimulate myself at night. I wanted to print out pictures and that required using my mother's computer instead of my own. I ended up needing my brother's help because he was better with technology. He helped, but it felt awkward. He helped print it all out, but he said I needed to send all those pictures to my mother's computer. We used my e-mail, and my mother's e-mail... I got the pictures.... then years later.....

My mother approached me when I was 16 or 17 (sorry, I can't remember which year this was...) to tell me she had an e-mail from me with cartoons in it. She said it was from a long time ago... at first I didn't recall. She then said they we provacative... I then remembered and immediately said, "I don't know what you are talking about..." At first, she just looked at me... forcing me to continue the sentence that was cut off by her stare, "but maybe I would if I seen it." She then promptly said, "I deleted it, but I told your father when I found it too." I just simply stated, "Well, now I guess it's all lost memory to me." I was relieved because telling your mother that you had more of an interest in anime pornography would have just felt awkward to me. That small interaction with my mother, along with my backstory of avoiding the real world as much as possible, shows how even though I coped with it pretty well that it can still be awkward to deal with your parents about it. Then, I also made my mother feel awkward by finally saying I seen my father and her going at it....(I didn't say for the 10 seconds I stood there and wondered, "Oh, so this is what sex looks like with real people.") .... Overall, that part of puberty was a blast and a positive feeling the majority of the time.

Thank you for reading, I hope you laughed at some of it... and made you feel a little awkward as well with my old fetish of anime.