Wednesday, ?January ?08, ?2014
10:00 PM - Zayle: i cant wait until i move and can be around real friends
10:01 PM - Zayle: i wont have to use people like you as a crutch anymore
10:01 PM - wizradful: what
10:02 PM - Zayle: you must be too busy with your game creation right now huh?
10:02 PM - wizradful: no i was talking to someone
10:04 PM - Zayle: soon ill be able to hang out with people and talk to them,and i wont have harass you to get any sort of conversation
10:05 PM - wizradful: i dont understand
10:07 PM - Zayle: i wont need you anymore
10:24 PM - wizradful: http://youtu.be/YZr197qDOfA
10:27 PM - Zayle: yeah just ignore what i said, not like it matters to you anyways
10:27 PM - wizradful: what do you want me to say to that
10:27 PM - wizradful: i'm glad you won't need me anymore
10:28 PM - Zayle: oh yeah?
10:28 PM - wizradful: thats good
10:28 PM - wizradful: for you
10:28 PM - Zayle: and what about you?
10:28 PM - wizradful: lol as long as you dont remove me or something i'll be happy
10:29 PM - Zayle: it must be nice to always have the upper hand
10:29 PM - wizradful: what
10:29 PM - Zayle: you never feel anything unless i drag it up
10:29 PM - Zayle: that must be so nice
10:30 PM - Zayle: i was fighting my anxiety all today over what happened almost a year ago, it must be so nice to just dismiss everything
10:31 PM - wizradful: i enjoyed it while we had it and i learned not to grieve when its over
10:32 PM - Zayle: of course not, you didnt invest anything in it
10:32 PM - Zayle: you didnt have any dreams
10:32 PM - Zayle: you just lead me on and had a good time
10:33 PM - Zayle: it doesnt matter that i trusted you and and you abused it, its all in the past
10:33 PM - wizradful: all relationships are built on trust
10:33 PM - Zayle: ours was built on lies
10:33 PM - wizradful: when it was over, it was overi
10:33 PM - wizradful: i told you not to get on that plane but you did it anyway
10:33 PM - Zayle: you lied to me
10:33 PM - wizradful: and you tried to force yourself upon me after i told you no
10:33 PM - Zayle: told me you werent going to be there
10:33 PM - Zayle: that your dad got threatened
10:33 PM - wizradful: instead of using your time in california doing other things you used it grieving in your room
10:34 PM - Zayle: and you guys were in witness protection
10:34 PM - wizradful: who gives a shit what i said back then it was retarded
10:34 PM - Zayle: i used it holding onto my dream
10:34 PM - wizradful: everything that happened was retarded
10:34 PM - Zayle: you let it happen
10:34 PM - wizradful: you didn't invest anything but a thousand dollars and your feelings
10:34 PM - Zayle: anything but?
10:34 PM - Zayle: you have no idea
10:34 PM - wizradful: i'm not your hopes and dreams and i wasn't going to be and you need to learn that
10:34 PM - Zayle: you have no fucking clue what you put me through
10:34 PM - wizradful: women aren't the magic "fix it all" thing you want them to be
10:34 PM - wizradful: relationships aren't always going to be god
10:34 PM - wizradful: good
10:34 PM - wizradful: ours went bad
10:34 PM - wizradful: shit sucks
10:34 PM - wizradful: life sucks
10:35 PM - Zayle: neither are parents
10:35 PM - Zayle: but you sure as fuck need those dont you
10:35 PM - wizradful: you need to get over it
10:35 PM - wizradful: seriously
10:35 PM - Zayle: you miss them every day
10:35 PM - wizradful: they died
10:35 PM - wizradful: thats not my fault
10:35 PM - wizradful: i miss them, but i don't grieve over them
10:35 PM - wizradful: i don't have anxiety attacks whenever something reminds me of them
10:35 PM - wizradful: i get sad for a bit
10:35 PM - wizradful: but thats it
10:35 PM - wizradful: i learn that life sucks and shit happens and there's nothing we can do about that
10:35 PM - wizradful: maybe one day you'll get a nice girlfriend who is everything you want
10:36 PM - Zayle: lol
10:35 PM - wizradful: but until then you need to toughen up and stop being such a pussy
10:36 PM - Zayle: maybe she will lie to me too
10:36 PM - wizradful: seriously
10:36 PM - Zayle: and use me for a good time
10:36 PM - Zayle: then dump me off when she realized she has something real
10:36 PM - Zayle: something that isnt a video game
10:36 PM - wizradful: something i didnt want
10:36 PM - wizradful: yeah, it's my fault
10:36 PM - wizradful: i should have said i didn't want it
10:36 PM - wizradful: i was afraid you'd leave me if i said that
10:36 PM - wizradful: and i was trying to keep our relationship for as long as i could
10:36 PM - wizradful: but i fucked up
10:36 PM - wizradful: thats my bad
10:36 PM - wizradful: and i know that
10:36 PM - wizradful: but now that shit is in the past
10:36 PM - wizradful: it's over and done with
10:37 PM - wizradful: you need to stop giving a shit about what we could have had
10:37 PM - Zayle: its a part of both of us
10:37 PM - wizradful: and start thinking about your future
10:37 PM - Zayle: yeah? i talk about your future and you get pissed
10:37 PM - Zayle: like getting a job and getting out
10:37 PM - wizradful: i would be really happy if you stopped talking about the past and being hurt by it
10:37 PM - wizradful: and instead started talking about your future
10:37 PM - wizradful: and what you're going to do
10:37 PM - wizradful: and how you're going to make your life a good life
10:37 PM - wizradful: because that's what i'm going to do
10:38 PM - wizradful: i can stop thinking about shit in the past so easily because it doesn't matter to me right now
10:38 PM - wizradful: it's not affecting me
10:38 PM - Zayle: nothing affects you
10:38 PM - Zayle: you hide in your room
10:38 PM - Zayle: and play video games and sit around all day
10:38 PM - Zayle: and do chores
10:38 PM - wizradful: right now, i have nothing to do with the past and all to dow ith the future
10:38 PM - wizradful: yeah?
10:38 PM - wizradful: that's just my life right now
10:38 PM - wizradful: you think that isn't going to change in the next couple of months?
10:38 PM - wizradful: the next year?
10:38 PM - wizradful: it will
10:38 PM - wizradful: and im going to be the one to change things in my life
10:38 PM - wizradful: and i'm not going to remember all the times where i sat on my computer being lonely
10:39 PM - wizradful: because once i get out there, i'm going to make friends
10:39 PM - wizradful: and have a good life
10:39 PM - wizradful: and this shit thats going n right now
10:39 PM - wizradful: isn't going to bother me
10:39 PM - wizradful: because i'll be thinking about the future
10:39 PM - Zayle: so thats all i am
10:39 PM - Zayle: a place holder
10:39 PM - Zayle: a stepping stone
10:39 PM - wizradful: you don't have depression problems
10:39 PM - wizradful: you just have problems letting go
10:39 PM - wizradful: and get depressed because of that
10:39 PM - Zayle: YOU added me back
10:39 PM - Zayle: YOU wanted to be friends
10:39 PM - Zayle: a  living fucking memorial to my failure
10:39 PM - wizradful: because i wanted to be friends with you, yes
10:39 PM - wizradful: whats wrong with that
10:39 PM - wizradful: so remove mer
10:39 PM - wizradful: remove me if its so bad
10:39 PM - wizradful: stop being a pussy
10:39 PM - wizradful: and remove me
10:40 PM - Zayle: because i want to forgive you
10:40 PM - Zayle: but you give me no reason to
10:40 PM - Zayle: "get over it"
10:40 PM - wizradful: if thats whats gonna make everything so better
10:40 PM - wizradful: then remove me
10:40 PM - wizradful: how can you forgive me
10:40 PM - wizradful: you told me
10:40 PM - wizradful: you can't
10:40 PM - wizradful: you seriously said you can't forgive me
10:40 PM - wizradful: i don't expect you to
10:40 PM - wizradful: theres no reason for you to
10:40 PM - Zayle: why wouldnt you want me to
10:40 PM - wizradful: so we can be friends
10:40 PM - wizradful: and game and have fun like we used to
10:40 PM - Zayle: well you have to fix what you broke
10:40 PM - wizradful: i didn't break anything
10:40 PM - wizradful: i broke up with you
10:40 PM - wizradful: we're exes
10:41 PM - Zayle: you used me
10:40 PM - wizradful: thats pretty much it
10:40 PM - wizradful: you used me too
10:41 PM - Zayle: everything i did for you added up to nothing
10:41 PM - wizradful: you used me to make yourself feel better and make yourself feel higher because you have a girlfriend that cares about you
10:41 PM - wizradful: thats what relationships are
10:41 PM - Zayle: no
10:41 PM - wizradful: so yeah, i used you
10:41 PM - Zayle: you have no fucking clue
10:41 PM - wizradful: you used me too
10:41 PM - Zayle: you couldnt even face me face to face
10:41 PM - wizradful: because that's not what i wante
10:41 PM - Zayle: you cant say shit about a relationshi
10:41 PM - Zayle: you got to use someone without even meeting them
10:41 PM - Zayle: just a voice behind a monitor
10:41 PM - Zayle: like it was a video game
10:41 PM - Zayle: someone theres just to make you feel better
10:42 PM - Zayle: you were more than that to me
10:41 PM - wizradful: i was there to make you feel better to
10:42 PM - wizradful: it wasnt just you making me feel better
10:42 PM - Zayle: i had to force you into it
10:42 PM - Zayle: all the deals and bargains
10:42 PM - Zayle: and passive aggressive shit
10:42 PM - Zayle: what made me feel better was what i was working towards
10:42 PM - wizradful: well thats your problem then
10:42 PM - wizradful: not mine
10:42 PM - wizradful: but you seriously
10:42 PM - wizradful: seriously
10:42 PM - wizradful: i'm not going to never stop saying this
10:42 PM - wizradful: you really need to get over it
10:43 PM - Zayle: how can you say it so cold
10:43 PM - Zayle: when you victimized me
10:43 PM - wizradful: lol victim
10:43 PM - wizradful: you were sad for a couple months and let it affect you more than you should have
10:43 PM - wizradful: you're a victim of yourself
10:43 PM - Zayle: its called depression, and failing a huge goal in your life and being abandoned by your best friend
10:43 PM - Zayle: the one person you thought cared about you hated you
10:43 PM - Zayle: and wished you didnt exist
10:43 PM - wizradful: you're sad because you lost your internet girlfriend that didn't want to actually be with you and now you're getting fucking anxiety attacks when things remind you about "what you could have had" tip: what you were NEVER GOING TO HAVE
10:44 PM - Zayle: so why add me back, i told you you were hurting me and causing chaos
10:44 PM - Zayle: so i could make you feel better again?
10:44 PM - wizradful: i thought half a year would have been enough for you to get over it and be friends with me again
10:44 PM - wizradful: but it wasn't
10:44 PM - Zayle: i almost killed myself
10:44 PM - wizradful: i don't know if there will ever be a time where we can just be friends again
10:45 PM - Zayle: you think that shit just fades away in my mind?
10:45 PM - wizradful: you know what i can honestly say right now?
10:45 PM - wizradful: i honestly think you weren't going to kill yourself
10:45 PM - wizradful: you were just looking for attention
10:45 PM - Zayle: yeah
10:45 PM - Zayle: i was looking for attention
10:45 PM - Zayle: when i was taking that drive
10:45 PM - Zayle: waiting to swerve left
10:45 PM - Zayle: after i removed you
10:45 PM - wizradful: you were looking for reasons not to do it
10:45 PM - wizradful: ANY reason would have sufficed
10:45 PM - wizradful: lo and behold
10:45 PM - wizradful: suppsoedly your sister drove by you
10:45 PM - wizradful: there was your resaon
10:46 PM - Zayle: im glad she did
10:46 PM - Zayle: you dont understand the magnitude of damage you did
10:46 PM - Zayle: you never sacrificed anything
10:46 PM - Zayle: you never invested in anything
10:46 PM - Zayle: it was all a game to you
10:46 PM - wizradful: you didnt' sacrifice anyhting else dude
10:46 PM - wizradful: IT WAS JUST A FUCKING INTERNET RELATIONSHIP
10:46 PM - wizradful: you lost a thousand dollars
10:46 PM - wizradful: yeah, that's a lot
10:46 PM - wizradful: that sucks
10:46 PM - wizradful: but thats your fucking fault
10:46 PM - Zayle: how are you immune to blame? i dont get it
10:46 PM - Zayle: you could blame everyone else for everything
10:46 PM - wizradful: i just told you i'm partially to blame
10:46 PM - wizradful: but that doesn't fucking matter
10:46 PM - wizradful: it really doesn't
10:46 PM - wizradful: it's been so long that it doesn't matter
10:47 PM - Zayle: it doesnt matter to you
10:47 PM - wizradful: what does matter is how you're beating yourself up right now
10:47 PM - wizradful: and every day you beat yourself up
10:47 PM - Zayle: because nothing matters to you
10:47 PM - wizradful: for a fucking
10:47 PM - wizradful: stupid retarded reason
10:47 PM - wizradful: and i hate it
10:47 PM - wizradful: because i care about you
10:47 PM - wizradful: and want you to feel better
10:47 PM - Zayle: i dont get to choose to or not
10:47 PM - wizradful: but you're just a dumbass
10:47 PM - wizradful: who can't get over a fucking e-relationship
10:47 PM - Zayle: of course
10:47 PM - Zayle: you cant even call it a real one anymore
10:47 PM - Zayle: you have to belittle it more
10:47 PM - wizradful: it wasn't a real relationship
10:47 PM - wizradful: there
10:47 PM - Zayle: make it feel less significant
10:47 PM - wizradful: i said it
10:47 PM - Zayle: it was a game to you
10:47 PM - Zayle: say it
10:47 PM - Zayle: you manipulated me
10:47 PM - wizradful: no, but it wasn't real
10:47 PM - wizradful: we didn't know each other in real life
10:48 PM - Zayle: you manipulated me
10:48 PM - wizradful: we were literally labelling ourselves as in a relationship jsut to make each other feel better because we were lonely
10:48 PM - Zayle: then threw me away when it went south
10:48 PM - wizradful: i didn't manipulate shit
10:48 PM - wizradful: you manipulated me
10:48 PM - Zayle: you lied to me
10:48 PM - Zayle: said you wanted to meet
10:48 PM - Zayle: said you wanted to be my wife
10:48 PM - Zayle: said you wanted to be with me forever
10:48 PM - wizradful: yeah because you always fucking forced meeting you upon me that i didn't want to say no becasue i didn't want to lose what we had
10:48 PM - Zayle: what we had was just an e relationship though
10:49 PM - Zayle: it wasnt important to you right?
10:48 PM - wizradful: yeah
10:48 PM - wizradful: thats what i wanted
10:48 PM - wizradful: ...
10:49 PM - wizradful: how do you derive
10:49 PM - wizradful: not important
10:49 PM - wizradful: from what i just said
10:49 PM - wizradful: i JUST SAID
10:49 PM - wizradful: i didn't want to lose what we had
10:49 PM - wizradful: but now you think it wasn't important?
10:49 PM - Zayle: what about what i wanted
10:49 PM - Zayle: or what i didnt want to lose
10:49 PM - wizradful: obviously if i didn't want to lose it then it is important
10:49 PM - wizradful: what you wanted was something i didn't want
10:49 PM - wizradful: we werent compatible
10:49 PM - wizradful: thats why we broke up
10:49 PM - Zayle: we never met
10:49 PM - wizradful: thats what relationships are
10:49 PM - Zayle: you dont fucking know that
10:49 PM - wizradful: i didn't want to meet
10:49 PM - wizradful: you did
10:49 PM - wizradful: incompatible
10:49 PM - Zayle: youre so close minded
10:50 PM - Zayle: i was an idiot
10:50 PM - wizradful: really? because i'm the one being open minded right now talkinga bout this shit
10:50 PM - wizradful: yeah
10:50 PM - wizradful: you were an idiot
10:50 PM - Zayle: and i still am
10:50 PM - wizradful: and you suffered for it
10:50 PM - wizradful: yes
10:50 PM - wizradful: you are
10:50 PM - wizradful: because you're still suffering
10:50 PM - wizradful: when you can fucking stop
10:50 PM - wizradful: and feel better
10:50 PM - wizradful: until you get over what happened
10:50 PM - wizradful: you always will be an idiot
10:50 PM - Zayle: no
10:50 PM - Zayle: ill always be an idiot for talking to you, and thinking anything positive about you
10:51 PM - Zayle: someone who wanted me back just for a few good laughs and a good time
10:51 PM - Zayle: until she finally grows up and gets a job
10:51 PM - Zayle: and doesnt want me around anymore, until im replaced
10:51 PM - wizradful: when i get a job i will always wnat to play video games and have fun with ymy friends
10:51 PM - wizradful: being an adult doesn't fucking change that
10:51 PM - Zayle: you wouldntk now what being an adult is like
10:51 PM - wizradful: and you're a fucking idiot for thinking that suddenly getting a job means no free time
10:51 PM - wizradful: really?
10:51 PM - Zayle: just like you dont know what being in a relationship is like either
10:51 PM - Zayle: youre so cut off
10:51 PM - Zayle: sheltered
10:51 PM - wizradful: because i'm certainly not the one being a stupid faggot over a relationship right now
10:52 PM - Zayle: you werent the toy of some manipulative bitch either
10:52 PM - wizradful: you manipulated me
10:52 PM - wizradful: i manipulated you
10:52 PM - wizradful: yadda yadda yadda
10:52 PM - Zayle: lol keep telling yourself that
10:52 PM - wizradful: it's over and done with
10:52 PM - wizradful: YOU DID DUDE
10:52 PM - Zayle: that i was just as guilty as you
10:52 PM - wizradful: YOU EVEN TOLD ME
10:52 PM - wizradful: THAT YOU DID
10:52 PM - wizradful: yeah
10:52 PM - wizradful: you did
10:52 PM - wizradful: it was dumb of me to talk about marriage and shit
10:52 PM - wizradful: i was just being stupid
10:52 PM - Zayle: thats your heart speaking
10:52 PM - Zayle: something you wont hear for a long time
10:52 PM - wizradful: but it was also dumb of you to get on that plane when i didn't want you to
10:53 PM - Zayle: you not wanting me to
10:53 PM - wizradful: how am i any more or less cut off than you are
10:53 PM - Zayle: is totally different from what you said
10:53 PM - wizradful: you might have a job but do you have a budding social life? doubtful
10:53 PM - Zayle: im going to when i move
10:53 PM - Zayle: i keep moving
10:53 PM - Zayle: and leaving everyone i know behind
10:53 PM - Zayle: youve lived int he same house for years
10:53 PM - wizradful: thats kind of a good and bad thing
10:53 PM - Zayle: in your case its a bad thing
10:53 PM - wizradful: exactly
10:53 PM - Zayle: but im the only one who will tell you that
10:53 PM - wizradful: so why are you saying it like its not
10:54 PM - wizradful: i just hope one day evan
10:54 PM - wizradful: that you look back at everything that happened
10:54 PM - wizradful: and realize
10:54 PM - wizradful: "wow meryll was right, i was being a dumbass"
10:54 PM - wizradful: i don't care if you hate me now
10:54 PM - wizradful: and if you hate me for the rest of your life
10:54 PM - wizradful: as long as you learn
10:54 PM - wizradful: how stupid you are being
10:54 PM - wizradful: then i'll be happy
10:54 PM - Zayle: i never denied it
10:54 PM - wizradful: i'm sorry for having to be so harsh
10:54 PM - wizradful: but i'm seriously
10:54 PM - wizradful: tired
10:54 PM - wizradful: of all this bullshit you put yourself through
10:54 PM - wizradful: for no good reason
10:55 PM - Zayle: you wouldnt understand, you dont know me
10:55 PM - wizradful: its
10:55 PM - wizradful: really not that difficult to get over shit
10:55 PM - wizradful: maybe for you it is
10:55 PM - Zayle: coming from you
10:55 PM - wizradful: but what does that make you
10:55 PM - wizradful: a fucking
10:55 PM - wizradful: baby
10:55 PM - Zayle: who lied the whole time
10:55 PM - wizradful: why do you have to make this about me? this is all about you remember
10:56 PM - Zayle: you never trusted me
10:56 PM - Zayle: you were just in it for the ride
10:55 PM - wizradful: all about you and how i betrayed you and shit
10:56 PM - wizradful: and somehow it all comes back to you
10:56 PM - wizradful: about what you wanted
10:56 PM - wizradful: thats fair
10:56 PM - wizradful: what you want what i want
10:56 PM - wizradful: what the fuck ever
10:56 PM - Zayle: i want to forgive you
10:56 PM - wizradful: the main point is
10:56 PM - wizradful: you can
10:56 PM - Zayle: but i dont think i ever will
10:56 PM - wizradful: and whose fault is that
10:56 PM - Zayle: both of ours
10:56 PM - Zayle: you have no intention to
10:56 PM - wizradful: no really actually its just your fault
10:56 PM - Zayle: its my fault because i keep thinking maybe i can
10:57 PM - Zayle: but youre just cold
10:57 PM - wizradful: its your fault becaus you wont get over dumb shit that happened a year ago
10:57 PM - wizradful: i'm not cold
10:57 PM - wizradful: i'm just realistic
10:57 PM - wizradful: and smart
10:57 PM - Zayle: and cold
10:57 PM - Zayle: and not smart
10:57 PM - Zayle: far from it
10:57 PM - wizradful: lol not smart? really
10:57 PM - Zayle: preaching from your daddys house
10:57 PM - wizradful: how does that make me not smart?
10:57 PM - Zayle: too scared to be around other people
10:57 PM - Zayle: too scared to meet me
10:57 PM - wizradful: how does that make me not smart
10:57 PM - Zayle: talking like you understand things and emotions
10:57 PM - wizradful: i do, though
10:57 PM - Zayle: when you just suppress everything
10:58 PM - Zayle: bury it all
10:57 PM - wizradful: i don't suppress everything
10:58 PM - Zayle: pretend it isnt real
10:58 PM - Zayle: pretend it doesnt matter
10:57 PM - wizradful: i don't bury it
10:58 PM - wizradful: i think about it all the time
10:58 PM - Zayle: you run away from it
10:58 PM - wizradful: but i don't let myself get hurt from it
10:58 PM - wizradful: you're just an idiot who thinks about bad things and then gets hurt
10:58 PM - Zayle: i am, youre right
10:58 PM - Zayle: and youre a coward
10:58 PM - wizradful: i am not a coward
10:58 PM - Zayle: you are a fucking coward
10:58 PM - Zayle: your fear controls your life
10:58 PM - wizradful: because..?
10:58 PM - Zayle: scared of people
10:58 PM - wizradful: i just didn't want to meet you
10:58 PM - Zayle: scared of change
10:58 PM - wizradful: that doesn't make me a coward
10:59 PM - Zayle: scared of me
10:59 PM - Zayle: scared of everything
10:59 PM - Zayle: scared of trying
10:59 PM - wizradful: i'm scared of people because i grew up sheltered and i wasn't allowed to go outside and talk to my friends and i was never allowed to go to my friends houses until i was 15
10:59 PM - wizradful: i didn't get out much
10:59 PM - wizradful: and my social anxiety is because of that
10:59 PM - wizradful: that doesn't make me a coward
10:59 PM - wizradful: i'm working on fixing that
10:59 PM - Zayle: you are a coward
10:59 PM - Zayle: your social anxiety is just a scapegoat
10:59 PM - wizradful: if anything that makes me stronger than you ever will be
10:59 PM - Zayle: so you can feel good about yourself
10:59 PM - wizradful: really?
10:59 PM - wizradful: why do you say that
11:00 PM - Zayle: because nothing bothers you, you could sleep all day and game all night
11:00 PM - Zayle: do literally nothing all day
11:00 PM - Zayle: and you dont care
11:00 PM - Zayle: a shallow empty life
11:00 PM - wizradful: isn't that paradise
11:00 PM - wizradful: it's paradise for me
11:00 PM - Zayle: that youre completely comfortable with it
11:00 PM - wizradful: it's not shallow and it sure isn't empty
11:00 PM - wizradful: i work out
11:00 PM - wizradful: i play video games
11:00 PM - Zayle: it is shallow and empty
11:00 PM - wizradful: talk to my friends
11:00 PM - wizradful: have fun
11:00 PM - Zayle: your fake friends on steam
11:00 PM - wizradful: i'm happy
11:00 PM - wizradful: yeah they aren't real life friends but does that make the interaction any less real
11:00 PM - Zayle: lol you have no fucking clue
11:01 PM - Zayle: you have no idea what real interaction is
11:00 PM - wizradful: uhh
11:01 PM - wizradful: you seem to forget
11:01 PM - Zayle: you running out to get your garbage and being nervous aboud your neighbor seeing you is a real interaction
11:01 PM - wizradful: i went to magic mountain with my friend llast year
11:01 PM - Zayle: yeah? and wasnt that amazing?
11:01 PM - Zayle: it didnt compare to just sitting on your computer did it?
11:01 PM - wizradful: uhhh
11:01 PM - wizradful: when we got to the hotel we were staying at
11:01 PM - wizradful: we sat on the bed and watched tv all night until we fell asleep
11:01 PM - wizradful: and then when we woke up we played ps3 all day
11:01 PM - wizradful: until we fell asleep
11:02 PM - Zayle: thats what a real friend is
11:01 PM - wizradful: yeah i know
11:02 PM - wizradful: and i have a real friend
11:02 PM - Zayle: surprisingly
11:02 PM - wizradful: so i am not living a hollow and shallow friend
11:02 PM - wizradful: life even
11:02 PM - Zayle: lol
11:02 PM - wizradful: you're telling me
11:02 PM - Zayle: keep telling yourself that as you procrastinate
11:02 PM - wizradful: i can't possibly enjoy my life
11:02 PM - Zayle: you never finish anything
11:02 PM - wizradful: because it doesn't conform to what everyone else thinks they want out of life
11:02 PM - wizradful: what makes me so villanous is bei ng content with my life
11:02 PM - Zayle: i never said you were villainous
11:03 PM - Zayle: i said you were shallow
11:03 PM - Zayle: and you arent an adult
11:02 PM - wizradful: thats not shallow though
11:03 PM - wizradful: yes i am
11:03 PM - Zayle: someday youll grow up
11:03 PM - wizradful: lol
11:03 PM - Zayle: like you said
11:03 PM - Zayle: you wont be like that forever
11:03 PM - Zayle: you wont always be a child
11:03 PM - Zayle: but right now you are
11:03 PM - Zayle: and i was a fool for falling for a child
11:04 PM - Zayle: i was doing well living with wiegert
11:03 PM - wizradful: you know whats really immature
11:04 PM - Zayle: and you added me back
11:04 PM - wizradful: is blaming other people for your problems
11:04 PM - Zayle: and damaged all the progress i made
11:04 PM - wizradful: you could have just
11:04 PM - wizradful: ignored it
11:04 PM - wizradful: or said no to me wanting to be friends
11:04 PM - Zayle: that would make me feel like a terrible person
11:04 PM - Zayle: but i see now i have to embrace that
11:04 PM - wizradful: you had all the reason to not be my friend
11:04 PM - Zayle: because catering to your needs and wants takes away from mine
11:04 PM - wizradful: well there you go
11:04 PM - wizradful: you found out
11:04 PM - Zayle: yeah, i gave you a chance
11:04 PM - wizradful: if we should be friends or not
11:05 PM - Zayle: i reached out with my heart
11:05 PM - Zayle: youre just a selfish, shallow bitch
11:05 PM - Zayle: and a child
11:05 PM - Zayle: and a coward
11:05 PM - wizradful: it would be cool if a year from now you realize how stupid you were being and how great of a friend i can be
11:05 PM - Zayle: and you draw out my obsessive, depressive, and anxious self i used to be
11:05 PM - wizradful: but until then you'll just be living a depressing life
11:05 PM - Zayle: things i wanted to leave behind
11:05 PM - Zayle: great friend? lol
11:05 PM - Zayle: playing league of legends
11:05 PM - wizradful: yeah
11:05 PM - Zayle: linking me 4chan
11:05 PM - Zayle: amazing friend
11:05 PM - wizradful: all of my friends think i'm a great friend
11:06 PM - Zayle: compared to states? or boz? or cobrah?
11:06 PM - Zayle: youre fucking nothing
11:05 PM - wizradful: you just don't because you think we could have more
11:06 PM - wizradful: yeah thats fine
11:06 PM - wizradful: they're real life friends
11:06 PM - wizradful: how can i live up to that
11:06 PM - Zayle: i had all your friends riled up thinking you were a guy
11:06 PM - wizradful: that doesn't make me any less of a great friend
11:06 PM - Zayle: because youre that fucking cut off from them
11:06 PM - Zayle: the real you, and the online persona
11:06 PM - Zayle: worlds apart
11:06 PM - Zayle: youre fake
11:06 PM - Zayle: i hate this fake you
11:06 PM - Zayle: you couldnt say anything you type to me in person
11:06 PM - wizradful: i'm being real right now
11:06 PM - Zayle: because youre a coward
11:06 PM - wizradful: these are my real emotions
11:06 PM - Zayle: keep telling yourself that
11:06 PM - wizradful: these are my real thoughts
11:06 PM - wizradful: my real feelings
11:07 PM - Zayle: spoken from a hiding child
11:07 PM - wizradful: you just hate that i can be so cruel
11:07 PM - Zayle: knowing they cant be found
11:07 PM - Zayle: no
11:07 PM - Zayle: i hate how stupid i am
11:07 PM - wizradful: well good
11:07 PM - Zayle: i hate how im drawn to you
11:07 PM - wizradful: because you are stupid
11:07 PM - Zayle: i hate how i gave you another chance
11:07 PM - wizradful: well then
11:07 PM - Zayle: you didnt deserve it
11:07 PM - wizradful: i suppose we have it settled then
11:07 PM - wizradful: i'll let you be the one to remove me
11:07 PM - Zayle: you waited until i removed you, so you wouldnt have to take any blame
11:07 PM - Zayle: you could feel ok
11:07 PM - wizradful: no
11:07 PM - Zayle: thats what passive aggressive is
11:07 PM - wizradful: if i didn't say anything today
11:07 PM - Zayle: im no stranger to it
11:07 PM - wizradful: you wouldn't remove me today
11:07 PM - wizradful: i could have just
11:07 PM - wizradful: pretended
11:07 PM - wizradful: not to be mad at you
11:08 PM - Zayle: i could have pretended to
11:08 PM - wizradful: and hate everything you think
11:08 PM - Zayle: i could have pretended nothing happened today
11:08 PM - Zayle: and youre a good friend
11:08 PM - Zayle: and i enjoy our interactions
11:08 PM - Zayle: and the past means nothing to me
11:08 PM - wizradful: so why the fuck
11:08 PM - Zayle: and youre a good, empethetic person
11:08 PM - wizradful: do you get so upset
11:08 PM - Zayle: because im not a fake like you
11:08 PM - wizradful: i am an empathetic person
11:08 PM - Zayle: if we were real friends i wouldnt have to hide my emotions
11:08 PM - wizradful: if i wasn't, i wouldn't have said anything about this shit today
11:08 PM - Zayle: ask wooper
11:08 PM - Zayle: i dont pretend to be someones friend
11:08 PM - wizradful: so
11:09 PM - Zayle: but damn, i tried so fuckin hard
11:08 PM - wizradful: in order for us to be "real friends" as you so aptly put it
11:09 PM - wizradful: you'd have to tell me how much you love me every day
11:09 PM - Zayle: no
11:09 PM - Zayle: i told you what you have to do
11:09 PM - Zayle: but you wont do it, we both know that
11:09 PM - Zayle: youre a coward
11:09 PM - wizradful: i'm not going to meet up with you now
11:09 PM - wizradful: lol
11:09 PM - Zayle: lol its so funny
11:09 PM - Zayle: lmao
11:09 PM - Zayle: yeah
11:09 PM - Zayle: get your laughs
11:10 PM - Zayle: im taking my friends with me, becuase were all real friends
11:10 PM - Zayle: but i know it wont bother you at all
11:10 PM - Zayle: nothing bothers you
11:10 PM - wizradful: it doesn't bother me because i kind of expected it
11:10 PM - wizradful: but whatever
11:10 PM - wizradful: you can have your vengeance against me
11:10 PM - Zayle: vengeance?
11:10 PM - wizradful: tell all your friends about what a heartless witch i am
11:10 PM - wizradful: get them to remove me
11:10 PM - Zayle: picking up my pieces is vengeance?
11:10 PM - Zayle: they all already fucking know meryll
11:10 PM - wizradful: thats not really picking up your pieces
11:11 PM - Zayle: they just can be fake friends with you because you never wronged them
11:11 PM - wizradful: so were they just pretending to be nice to me because you told them to
11:11 PM - Zayle: yes
11:11 PM - wizradful: because i don't think they think i'm a heartless witch as you say
11:11 PM - Zayle: lol
11:11 PM - Zayle: ask them sometime
11:11 PM - Zayle: boz is too nice to tell you
11:11 PM - wizradful: why would i do that
11:11 PM - Zayle: hes not one for conflict
11:12 PM - Zayle: i wont have "vengeance"
11:12 PM - Zayle: because im not seeking it
11:12 PM - Zayle: im taking care of myself by removing you
11:12 PM - wizradful: good
11:12 PM - wizradful: hopefully you'll get better someday
11:12 PM - wizradful: good bye
11:12 PM - wizradful is now Offline.