Its hard trying to send a message from my phone on DA. I'm at the hospital right now. They ended up just pumping my stomach, but I'm not going to go into details.

Everything that's happened is just too much. You accused me of wanting to be with Baylee before, and it was wrong of you to assume without talking to me first instead of just assuming I was already with her and immediately dating someone else without even waiting like decent people with kind hearts would. By doing that, you ended up just showing me how miniscule I really am. So I want to thank you. I want to thank you for making me feel absolutely special since november 10th until.. Actually, I don't even know the date of our break up because it's been so fucked. But as I was saying, thank you. You made me the happiest for those three months. If I do have one regret, it's that I spent the time and money that I could have used for my father instead in going down to see you. If I had known you would have done this to me at the end of it all, I would never have. Doesn't mean I wouldn't have kept trying to make you happy.

Back to what I'm getting to: Thank you for everything. Thank you for making me feel special. Thank you for telling me you loved me. Thank you for letting me love you. Thank you for seemingly always being there for me. And thank you immensely for showing me that I'm a pathetic nobody and will never be any one.

For the record, if you truly do care about my well being, then you have Baylee to thank for saving me this time. Even after everything, and those screenshots you sent to her that she didn't even need to see, she already went close to the edge. But it's not really like you'd care, huh? It seems like that's what you were TRYING to do.

But you know? At the very end of everything, just regarding you and I, I don't even care anymore. I ended up going through a ton of shit, with the passing of my greatest and only companion (As you so clearly have shown me), I was left with no one. I wonder if you can imagine how it felt to hear that you were already dating someone else after talking to me so much about fixing everything finally. Either way, I had no one at the end, but Baylee did happen to be the only person who really was there. She actually did put in the effort to care for me, despite everything.

I used to tell you that I had owed you my life and everything I have, but you were far from it. And you don't even care. You dating Evan immediately after a break up and staying with him after we talked about being together and keeping it secret from me after promising no more secrets... I won't go too much into it anymore because you will just refuse to see it. You don't, and won't, see yourself as the villain. I doubt you will ever understand how much you took my heart and crushed it between your steel spiked boots. I had put my absolute trust and faith into you, but you turned around and shoved a marble pillar up my ass. So thank you for fucking me over.

Since the passing and everything that had happened, I really didn't have anyone. Comet was my only companion during the nights I was alone, and he was taken from me. To top it off, you made me feel better and kept me comfort after Comet was taken by not only ditching me, but getting together with some other person and only for the reason that they said they liked or loved you. Because of this, it made me think.

You used to tell me Ethan was such a horrible guy, but after what you've shown me and after what I've heard from Ethan, it's you who ended up fucking things over. I used to hate Evan after you told me you were dating him because I thought he stole your heart from me... But now it's the opposite. I feel bad for Evan because I know what you're going to do to him. To top it off, I hear you've been trying to break off the relationship between Ethan and Sasha. You know what, Lulu? You really do need to know your boundaries. How dare you decide who can and cannot be happy? All you manage to do is bring up the past, and only the bad parts, just so that you can manipulate others into doing what you want and forcing everyone to be miserable. Do you really have that black of a heart? Maybe that's why for your cutie mark, the heart was black. I bet you already knew this about yourself.

Either way, I suppose right now would be the best to say it. I personally do not care anymore about you. I don't hate you, that was a promise I made, to never hate you. I don't love you. I have no feeling for you whatsoever. To me, you're just some person that I just happen to know and have once dated in the past but no more. I don't dislike you, but I don't like you. I don't care if we talk, I won't be rude and ignore you. But I'm not really going to START a conversation with you. I won't exactly be the first to talk to you after this point unless I have reason to.

 Actually, there is something. I want to know that you read all of this. You ended up swearing to me that you wouldn't lie. So prove to me you read this for my own satisfaction. Message me in iMessage and once I'm released from the hospital in a few days, I'll gladly respond back with a hardy "Thank you." This isn't sarcasm.

Because Baylee ended up being the one who saved me, and I've had nothing up to this point, I decided to confide into Baylee. You might think that "Oh, you knew it" or whatever bullshit, but you know what? You have lied to me far more than I have ever lied to you. But right now, I really don't care if you believe what I have told you was a lie or the truth anymore. I already know what you're going to think. You're so fucking predictable, which is why I feel very horrible for Evan. I wish him good luck against a cold hearted backstabber like you. I'll happily spend the rest of my days and time with Baylee. She managed to actually show me that she did love me at the same time that you went behind my back and dated someone else immediately after breaking up with me without even waiting to see what happened with us.

If you skipped to the end of this without reading, please read what I said earlier for you to promise me to do. Otherwise, I don't mind making multiple accounts to keep messaging you this message. And as for changing my dA, I'll just wait for my premium to run out. Then I'll go from there.

~Without Hate or Love, Alex.